Things change. Things change faster than you can say 'Things change'. i'm uncomfortable with change, unless its for the better. yes, i'm so sorry, but i dislike changes. Like having the best-CT-in-the-world Mr Tong in NYJC to the worst-CT-who-ever-lived M.G. Like best-friends to i-don-friend-you friend in pri sch. Like pple leaving, like pple drifting away.

I just heard this chorused shout from downstairs, goodness knows what it is. But it sounded or rather reminded me of those new year countdowns. Those 'Happy New year!'shouts. *cheer* . And i got super sad. haha. i dunn... no actually, this time i know why. I know i don wan to count down to 2005. I don wan to begin a new strange year. I don wan to sae goodbye to my best year ever. 2004. 4 has always been my fave number. Now i know why. Everything good and nice has my 4 in it. Like small little teeney weeney things that were great. Most has 4s in them. aiyah. wadeva. i'm being boliao here.

i don wan to one day have to bid Hui Min and Xin Ru goodbye, going separate ways. I don wan Li Si and Jaime and Chen Si to disappear from my life on day. I don ever want to leave TJ,(not retain la!) i want to do my uni and my work in TJ. hahaha. Yet i know all of these changes will happen. its only a matter of time. And i don like that. Geez. Its like only entering year 2 next yr and i'm already feeling so terribly heavy-hearted becoz of impending graduation? geez. who in the world does that? Me.

Well, i guess incidents these weeks haven helped much. I feel super left out in my CG. And i know i'm not the only one who feels this way. Its like 32/04 = 32/04 - 32/04 LEPs. And it feels bad. Really bad to feel so misfit in class. Well, which is why these 'misfits' fit together. Don get me wrong, i really really really like Ernnie and Gladys and Geraldine and Siu Fen etc. It's just hard to talk to them when the whole class is together becuz they tend to stick to their own clique. And for Ernnie, she's like the only person in class, not LEP who is so nice to me. Love ya, ernnz.

sigh. nothing i say can help. so i might as well shut up.

i hate PW.
Joyce at 8:50 PM

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